As I stated in an earlier post, my sister’s friend committed suicide last week.  He was dating my sister’s roommate, and they broke up.  Evidentally, he was pretty obsessed with the relationship, and was devasted when it ended.  That’s all I’ll say about the details.

I wish I could have crawled into his head those few hours before it happened.  What was going on in his mind that pushed him past the point that most of us don’t even tread?  I understand pain and depression.  I’m going through my own personal hell at the moment, and I know what it feels like to barely be able to function.  However, there is still something that happens in my mind that reminds me that this too will pass.  There is always a tiny flame of hope that keeps a little light in the darkness.  What was it that blew out that boy’s flame of hope?

Too bad we can’t really crawl into people’s heads and take away their pain even if only for a small moment.  Maybe just a few minutes of being able to think clearly would have allowed him to realize that life is worth living. 

This has been a fear of mine since I caught one coming through the crack of my door. Caught it with a mason jar. It..was..HUGE!!

They freak me out.  I hope you don’t see anymore.  So far I’ve seen 4 in a matter of days. *shudders*

I have a big wolf spider living under my bed. *cries*

Too much drama!  Today my neighbor beat up his girlfriend really badly.  Then he ran from the cops and was hiding in the fields and woods near our house.  They had the freakin canine unit out here looking for him.  Thankfully, they found him hiding in a soybean field.  I hope he goes to prison for a long time.  This is not the first time he has done this.  He has been in trouble his entire life.

I’m glad they found him because I think I would have been a little scared tonight wondering if he would break into a house.  I mean, this is the country for crying out loud, not some big city.  The only thing I want to hear in my fields at night are crickets and owls, not dogs chasing down a criminal.

It’s been a rough few days.  My sister’s friend committed suicide.  Once again, it’s one of those things that you just never think will touch your life, and then when it does you wonder where you get the strength to move past it.  I hate to see my sister in so much pain.

Anyway, I’ll discuss this a little more tomorrow. 

Welcomeee. I feel bad, which I could help still. D= I’ll make your art trade top priority and make you feel better. 8D I need to go and find that envelope with your address, so I can send it. *lol*

Ahh!  I need to do your art trade too.  Oh my!  I’m such a procrastinator. haha!

And, no worries, take your time on the drawing.  Art trades should be fun. :)

Oh, and if you want my address, I’ll send it to you in a note or message.

Mawww, I wish I could help. D8 Me no like when friends be saaaad. Have some soup and watch something mindless. Maybe cuddle with your kitties.

Eat soup and cuddle with my kitties!  I do that everyday! :)

Thanks, I appreciate your concern.  It’s one of those things that is going to get much worse, but maybe in the long run it will be better.  Until then I’ll keep eating soup and cuddling with my cats. haha!

I feel like I’ve been pretty absent from my blog lately.  I have not been writing regularly, which is something I try to do.  But, I guess you can say I’ve been pre-occupied.  Actually, emotionally distressed is probably more accurate.  It is nothing I can talk about on my blog at this time, but maybe forcing myself to get back to some writing will be good for me.

Oh, that’s real. I didn’t know that. That’s just Lady Gaga, she lives to press sensitive people’s buttons.

It might not be real, which would make it even funnier that I got so grossed out. haha!  Every now and then images do that to me.

She wore a meat bikini?! That is just a disgusting way to shock people and get more attention..

I can’t really say that I agree or disagree with you because I still can’t get past the image of the meat to think of what her purpose is. haha!

I will say that this idea is not new, and I’m sure it will be done again.  I’ve seen another musician use a picture of a woman wrapped in meat.  That picture didn’t gross me out.  This picture has made me lose my appetite.  I think it is just the way the meat is placed and how it just hangs there, and how red it is.

But, on the other side, a lot of people are saying “Yummy” haha!  So, it will grab some people’s attention like it did for me, and other’s will just see it as another picture. 

You should make apple butter. Believe me, in the winter, fresh bread with homemade apple butter is delicious and comforting.

That sounds delicious.  I’ll have to look for receipes.  Thanks!

Has anyone seen Lady Gaga’s meat bikini?  I’m sure the better question is who hasn’t seen it.  It struck a nerve with me.  I don’t really care about the artistic statement she is or isn’t trying to make.  I’m also not from Peta.  I don’t even care if she was just getting ready to go to a family cookout.  As a matter of fact, when I look at that picture I barely see that she’s in it.  All I see is that meat hanging there and for some reason it has really, really grossed me out.  I think I’ve lost my appetite.  I think she has just made it a little easier for me to become a vegetarian. haha!

My feeling kind of reminds me of this story I’ve read about Ian Mckellan. 

“I looked down from my terrace hanging over the Thames one morning. It was low tide and there, stranded on the pebbles, was a four-legged corpse - hairless, white and bloated. Was it a calf or a sheep or a goat or a dog? I stared at it until the tide rose and washed it away. For 24 hours I was off my food. When I started eating again, I couldn’t face meat - fresh or tinned. Overnight I was vegetarian and I have been for 15 years or more. I’ve seen the pictures of factory farming and followed the politics of mad cow disease and felt effortlessly superior. Yet it’s not reason or conscience that keeps me off meat and fowl—and these days fish, too—just a memory of that unidentifiable, decomposing body on the beach.”

It is almost time to pick apples from the apple orchard down the street from where I live.  I’m looking forward to them so much, I can almost taste them!  Fresh apple cider and apples that we pick straight off the trees, it’s just perfect!

Thanks to Nicklas for reminding me that Fall is right around the corner.